HARRO! :D

sdfs

sometimes i just think: is it too much to ask for? i know you guys all lead busy lives and have things to do, but is it really hard to just drop it all for one night? especially if you really do consider yourselves my closest friends, is one night out of your life every year really going to wreck your entire life? it doesn’t seem that hard to make plans and happily pre-set events with others, why not me? am i just that repulsive? only two people in the world are off the hook for this bullshit, and that’s nathan and my mother. they’re the only ones who actually had a genuine interest in my fucking life and asked me how a life changing event had gone. thanks for caring friends. my life isn’t as busy as yours, but taking a few minutes of your time is just a bit too much, isn’t it? you’re all just too busy in your own world gossiping away, going shopping, lying, doing the other stuff you didn’t say you were going to do but lying to me about it because that’s what friends are for, right? complete radio silence for days and you expect me to be happy about it because you have your own shit to worry about, yet people you see on almost every day occasions you’ll make the effort to talk to after you leave them. just abandon me please, it’s what i love about life. “oh maybe i can make your party my dear buddy and close friend, i’m not sure if i’m allowed, even though there are photos of recent parties i’ve been to. apparently the idea of being a close friend isn’t true to its word in my case, how inconvenient that you may have to come, just to satisfy my desire for friendship and to sate my social angst. i seem to make every effort that i can for you all, i lend money, food, a place to stay and hang, and you then all leave, without even cleaning up. maybe that’s just your way of saying “hey, i enjoy all your facilities, and i don’t mind that you’re around to enjoy them with me but i won’t help you clean up, that’s your job , see ya mate.”

“hey can we talk?” “no sorry i’m busy with someone else talking” “can we talk tommorrow?” “maybe i might be busy” 

ALWAYS BUSY

“hey wanna hang?” “not sure, i’ll come if i can but we’ll see”

NEVER SHOWS UP.

“<insert serious conversation>”
“SEAN <insert completely inappropriate comment”

Thanks for fucking caring.

“It’ll just be a day for you and I” and I’ll write you one every day. (It takes a few seconds, really.)

You really care give a shit about me enough to even do it once? No.

RINSE AND REPEAT.

Just remember, you promised. fkn life.